I am not myself lately, and I think I know why.

I was in an accident yesterday, and I still can't get over it.  It's as if every car moves to the right, I can't help but cringe, brake slowly and go way below the speed limit.

It's almost as if my confidence was shattered in half, and I don't even know if I'm going to get it back.

There's so many thoughts on my head right now from that one day, from the point of impact to my drive home on a car with really bad wheel alignment and screeching wheels from Long Beach to Gardena.

I don't even know to where to start, but I'll fire away.

1.  I've "complained" about a routine life, and I needed something to spice it up.  This was not the way I wanted to do it, especially with my birthday coming up, and all.

2.  My mom keeps reitirating the point that God saved my life.  My aunt died the same way, except I didn't get hit while spinning two lanes into a hazard lane into the grass.

3.  This whole ordeal is affecting me.  My shoulders are always up, I don't know why, but I feel stiff and icy.  I'm still comfortable driving, but again my confidence is just shattered, and I'm still livid from that bastard who bumped me in the side.  As much as I hate to say it, this is how I really feel and nothing can change that, even though my parents have easily forgiven me for it.

4.  I need to rethink life.  It's as if I've been doing it wrong, and there's some really weird and twisted message in this.  I don't know how to redo it, but for starters, I should just appreciate my so called routine life for now, get a PASS in my english class, and get an A in my math class, then head out for New York, start a whole new life over there.

Despite this whole accident, I am in one piece, blogging late once again, as I've been almost falling asleep in work and my legs are getting more tired by the minute, per hour. 

Also, something that greatly balances this out is that I've been accepted as a Youth and Government intern.  I'm really psyched about it, and I'm glad that I'm not the only Westchesterian (not really from Westchester, but my name badge says so) that's interning.

Besides all that emotion, now I have to ask my boss for a dayoff on the sixteenth of October, and knowing that it will fly, Sarah and I are driving to Ontario.  Not sure if it's only her or me, but it's going to be fun either way.

Anyways, time to sleep because I have to work.  One more day, and it's my birthday and a paycheck!