One of the nicknames that Hassan gave me in high school was starting to finally make sense.

I remember being called "Toast" in high school because I was often wrong when I had a point to say, and apparently my peers are better than me in certain things.

But the context of "toast" with my current state of condition is that I'm tired, I'm burnt, and possibly stale.

I started work at seven thirty and besides a breakfast of a chocolate chip cookie, cheese bread and water, I literally moved from point to point non-stop for four hours (partially lying here, but I was in motion all day long). 

I was so tired at that point that I was still behind on my prep - two or three tasks behind, and I was resorted to eating in a very rapid pace where I prep where I was told to eat at the dining room, and enjoy myself, or so said my boss.

I really couldn't enjoy the meal despite its' appeal to my rumbling stomach.  But really, I just had to rock it out, I suppose.

My continuous movement continued as there were tickets all day long, at least for a good hour and a half.  I'm loving it really, but I hate it when I get tickets wrong especially if I have five more to make after that, and then the ticket machine just keeps cranking out more.  Not my routine, but I ironically like it for some wack reason...

My whole point is ever since I started "applying" to the CIA, I've been reduced to the equivalent of my twitching friend who has over loaded on caffiene where  my hands haven't stopped moving from chopping, slicing and consistently losing on Madden (I swear, the Chiefs have a bad offensive line and quarterback, and I'll figure out their offense one way or the other) along my eyes are twitching back and forth to check my account whether or not El Camino took my money yet or when my mom's three hundred dollars would come through so I could see how fiscally crippled I am at this hopefully temporary moment of time.

If chefs aren't allowed to have a bad day in the kitchen, then why are they allowed to have a bad day in their lives? 

I'm just asking.