Youth Movement

Today, I handed over "my car keys" to my mom, simply saying that I refuse to drive, or accept it, since it's only a symbol of her giving me the middle finger. Either that, or I'm actually finally starting to feel the economic strain that this country is experiencing.

It's not so much that I refuse to drive, it's something called an Insurance Policy that prevents me from doing it. My mom says that my stepdad hasn't paid his bills, but she's willing to pay for it if either I am enthused by the idea of church, and its affiliates (Youth Group, etc.).

As we were having this discussion in the car, I gave reasons to my mother such as:

1. People who have religious beliefs think they are far more superior, since they have something that is called "God" with them.
2. Church is boring, and it doesn't really entertain me these days. I mean, it's simply a man on stage preaching the practical thing. Common sense, more like. And does it really take some sort of place to learn such values of common sense? (I know, the concept itself is rather broad).

I forgot what other reasons I have, but those two are my main ones.

I also know that by writing this, I am not creating friends, and I hope I'm not creating enemies either (your opinions are however, accepted. Fire away).

The main reason why I don't trust my mom on things is that her logic is based on a religious mindset, and it really upsets me to think that whatever she says is always credible, and I just want practical advice, none of that "godly bs" that she feeds me from time to time.

I really do hate the fact that she's trying to convince me to join another Youth group. I've experienced it before, and I didn't have as much fun as I wanted to, and because of that, why should I give it another chance? Why should I meet people who I believe are far more superior than me, because they have that "godly bs" knowledge.

Really, why should I give this another shot?

So that I could make that woman called my mother make me happy?
So that I could drive again?
So that I could have more friends?
Because I have nothing better to do?

Everytime I think about it, I am simply a male version of my mother, and I hate it so much.

The sound of her voice is so annoying, that I don't want to be near her as much as possible.
Her logic is so stupid that I don't even want to take advice from her.
Her way of life is so unorthodox that it deprives me of some better opportunities out there.

I don't even know. All this, simply because one wanted me to go to some Youth Group that I never want to experience again.

As much as I believe that there is no reason for me to go back, as being told that my "faith is drifting away", I'm gonna go back and give this another shot. The reasons, I will not state publicly, but here's one thing.

I'm not out there to make my mother happy.
I'm out there for myself.